Every time I get on social media (yup, all of them), I feel like I see four of my friends getting engaged. Their pictures are blasted all over my page, and then I get to re-live my experience when every single one of our mutual friends comments on how good their engagement photos look. There are stages I can feel myself go through, emotionally, when this happens to me.
These stages are something we all probably experience. But has anyone really put their finger on them? Well, here they are. It's your lucky day:
It sucks to see someone else glowing with that "in love" look while you're sitting on your couch in front of Netflix--again. There's that initial feeling of "why am I not happily in love yet?", and then the visions of your future life that follow... where you're still alone on your couch watching the same romantic comedies over and over again.
Then, after you get over your little pity party for yourself, you actually realize that you're happy for your friend. Even though you might be a bit sour about it, you type, "Congrats! What a cute couple!" on a few of the photos and call it a day...
So you think.
The longer you think about it (and it honestly might take a few days), the more you realize how relieved you are that you're still a single Pringle. Maybe you're in a relationship, but thank GOD you aren't having to plan a wedding on top of all the other responsibilities you have in your life. Yeah. You're fine. You're focusing on school.
Yeah. You're fine for, like, two seconds before you're freaking out again about being alone for the rest of your life. The images start creeping back in, and pretty soon you're imagining yourself in a nursing home with no one to share your birthday cake. No one to even send you a card.
As soon as you sit back and think about the duration of your life, you're determined to spend these years alone. You're determined to find yourself before you commit to someone. And whether that takes you 23 years or 43 years doesn't matter. Some people are faster at that whole "figure yourself out" thing than others. You refuse to beat yourself up about it.
And at about the time you get through the fifth step, you jump back on social media to catch up with everyone and another one of your friends is engaged and glowing. Well, back to step one, folks.